a piece of original literature…?

16 Jun 2009 1 Comment

by ojik in Uncategorized

Back in 2001 (my first year in college, by the way), I made a poem entitled “Alone”…it wasn’t supposed to mean something personal..It was only something I created out of nothing in order to pass an assignment for my literature class…but as I reminisce on all the articles I’ve written, this particular poem stroke me the most and it led me into deep thinking…maybe it means something to me now…maybe…just maybe…

Back then, we were given two choices: make an original poem or interpret one that’s already created by writers, whether famous or not..and so the bold and daring that I am, I gathered much confidence to create my own…honestly though, I wasn’t even inspired when I created it….believe me, it meant nothing much to me but a single piece of simple literary work…much to my surprise though, it turned out to be a beautiful masterpiece…I got a perfect score! hahaha…Magnum Opus?! pwede! Unfortunately, I lost the original piece…I don’t even remember creating a copy either. And as poignant as it may seem to have lost it, it’s even more depressing that I don’t remember the exact lines I wrote!…huh! “totally disastrous!”…So to cut short my story-telling…let me share to you the poem which I wrote almost 8 years ago…or should I say, something I recalled from the vague memory of it….enjoy…or not…

ALONE

I was in disguised when you met me so many years and tears ago

Whether it was some bright lipstick or forced false bravado

 

But it doesn’t matter ‘coz you always saw through me …

 

You know when I’m feeling low

even though I seem to laugh so much

You know when I’m hurting

even though I cannot cry…

 

But did you really love me?

No, I guess not.

 

I have seen the doubt in your eyes…

I have sensed your confusion everytime

I distance myself and you pull yourself away.

You have felt my never ending need

to hurt you…

Only to inflict myself more pain on the bargain.

 

I’ve been confused and I’ve been scared

And so I left thinking my heart would be spared

But I never knew my heart would twinge for so much pain
and for many times my tears fell like rain.

 

Although I love you with all my heart

I believe we would be better off apart

So please forgive me when I say,

I love you so much but please stay away.

 

I know I have to go on my own

Sometimes I wish that it wasn’t so lonely

This business of being ALONE…  

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